Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Greetings from the Land of Abandoned Blogs...

Hello Friends,

Yes, it has been a very long time. I've missed you, and have often thought about blogging over the past year, but a few things have held me back. First, and foremost, I've been busy. I am not naturally all that clever or witty, so posting anything remotely well written tends to take me a bit of time.

Second, most of the interesting stuff in my life happens in the context of patient encounters at work, and I struggle (on an ongoing basis) with the idea of disclosing details of what people tell me. Of course I would never betray anyone's confidentiality, but sometimes I think even just sharing, no matter how anonymously, information that someone has bravely disclosed about their very private life, must be some kind of an empathic failure or ethical violation. I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I flip flop back and forth.

Finally, probably the most significant reason I haven't been writing is that I've just been too frickin' happy over the past year. I started this blog in medical school, primarily as a means of exposing some of the calamity of life as a med student, and as a way of venting my frustrations. These days, my life feels pretty settled (in a good way). After years of waiting, and many false starts, I stumbled onto 'the one' last February. We've had many great times and adventures together, and now are planning to get married, which is to take place in March (come to think of it, chronicling our wedding planning foibles might be just the thing to breathe some life back into this blog). Being with a wonderful man who loves you, in an uncomplicated relationship that works and feels right, really removes a lot of fodder for angst-ridden, lamenting, drama-filled stories. Life is just downright wonderful these days. I don't know how riveted you'd be by a story about a disagreement over what kind of soup we should have for dinner.

So, on that note, and just to underscore how exciting I am, I'm going to hit the sheets now and nap for an hour. I feel totally wiped out (possibly from my flu shot yesterday), and I'm on call tonight, so I need to catch a few zzzs this afternoon in anticipation of a crazy night tonight - literally.

I will try to write again soon,
xotabby